Now, more than ever I want to freeze time. I want to soak in these days and always see the joy in my children’s eyes like I do now.
I want the “ooohhhs” and “ahhhhhs” of my voice to always make my sweet daughter smile. For my off-key version of baa, baa black sheep put an enormous smile on my son’s face and get his dancing feet moving.
It’s so easy to anticipate the next stage in my children’s life that I can forget to see what they are accomplishing now. I don’t know how many times I’ve said “I’ll be happy when…. he can walk, when she sleeps through the night, when he can talk, when they can do it themselves, etc…” I don’t want to do that anymore. It’s not the truth and I won’t be happy. I’ll be sad and emotional and reminiscent of the times they needed me. I don’t want to miss out on the overwhelming pride felt as they grow and flourish into the people they are meant to be.
From now on I will be in the present. No more fast forwarding. Life moves too quickly all on it’s own and if creating these little lives is not about seeing the beauty in each stage of their life, what is?
I want to feel that swell in my heart every moment I’m given the chance. I will learn to savor the moments. Tomorrow is a mystery.